adoringpast | ic inbox for recolle part deux;

i’m just your everyday guy.

that sounds fun. i know Liz was thinking our next gathering would be more of a relaxing day. anyway, this is a big step for you, isn’t it? before you were concerned about inflicting the grand idol wars on those that share memories with you, now you might dine with your frenemies.

you don't give yourself too much credit, do you

tbh im still apprehensive about it, but it's almost a year since ive been on this app so i may as well let the others know about it
there are so many of us out here in this city
and i thought about you saying that we should help each other out esp. in these times in duress so
we may not be able to change the past but we still have the power to change the present and affect the future, right?

i'm not wrong that i'm an everyday college student.

100% right. what's the point of worrying about things you can't change when you can make a difference now? you can pave your own path. don't let anyone take your life or future away from you.

but there are times where you want to change one thing in your past, right? you know, back in February, the wolves gave me the option to rectify all my mistakes. it was a tempting offer.

they can do that?
i imagine that it was easier said than done but
what did you do?

the wolves were magical, but who knows? it could have meant everything. forgetting about your mistakes, in a way, is fixing them. you could be the person you've always wanted to be without any of those crippling insecurities that stem from those small mistakes in the past. you could be finally free in the easiest way possible.

of course i said no.

well that's good
that would've been a really stupid decision on your part
you'd just revert back into a blank slate bc mistakes like those shape us so that we won't do it again
idk if it would count memories of your past life but those flashes of memory are a constant reminder that there's nothing we can do to change whatever happened
so we may as well make up for whatever we had done

[ it's more than apparent that he's just ruminating things about himself at this point. ]

though i'd be lying if i say i didn't want to take back all the bad things i've said and done in this life, at least
turning back time and all that

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it really would have been. they're not only small mistakes. a proposal like that wouldn't matter if it it was. big stakes, big outcomes. still a dumb thing to accept without knowing in full detail what will happen.

but, yeah, i agree. even right now i'm thinking that if there was a way to turn back time, if maybe things would be different. how many lives would be saved?

yeah
not having to feel guilt and regret every time you see the person you've let down
but that's just selfish of us
turning back time doesn't automatically fix things
in some cases it'd be like delaying the inevitable
and that's just cowardly

[ ... ]

but im getting ahead of myself
i don't even know why we're suddenly talking about this, it's too depressing to think about

i would be glad to see the person at all.

[ Yeah, it's depressing. ]

sorry about that. anyway, the wolves looked like they came straight from hell and you know that you shouldn't make deals with the devil.

yet you're dating one

[ hah ]

but seriously though
are you doing fine
people don't usually talk about heavier topics like that unless there's something in their mind

do as i say, not as i do.

something happened to a friend of mine, so i’m still a little shaken. but i think we’re going to be okay.

[ He just needed someone to help him calm down. Even if Yukine isn’t out the room yet, he’s hopeful that things will be all right? ]

shaken?

[ that bad, huh... ]

whoever that is, i hope they'll be fine too
are they on the app?

yeah, he is.

i'm not sure if you two would get along, but he's a good guy.

he's your friend after all, so i believe you

[ he'd... actually met yukine once or twice last year because of his connection to anya but that was it. ]

you feel better now?
i thought you'd rather approach akechin for this

i wasn't planning to mention it at all, so i picked someone at random. sorry.

i think he wants some space. he kind of blew up at me and felt ashamed about it, so i wouldn't want to bother him. i'll tell him later.

no it's fine it's just

[ weird for akira to pick sena of all people as a distraction from this... he may or may not feel touched at this tiny gesture. ]

wait, akechin got angry?
huh
i'd never thought someone like him could actually be mad at something
he's usually rather chill

[ because the only time he'd seen goro look off, it wasn't even the real goro but his trigger-happy doppelganger from last october. brr. ]

he was more mad at himself, so it's understandable.

when you bottle things, you explode, right?

that's true
everyone has a limit
i just didn't think he'd snap at you

[ should he needle him for deets... nah. ]

he didn’t really snapped at me. he was more mad at himself than anything.

i should have taken a picture since it was rare. most of the time he passive-aggressively sulks or simmers, then refuses to talk about it.

wow
what a drama queen

[ POT, KETTLE ]

well im sure he'll get over it
whatever that is
im sure he can never stay mad at himself and by extension you for that long

i would hope so. things like that don't just disappear after a few nice words.

but Goro is tough. i believe in him.

[ Though it's actually a topic he's comfortable talking about. He isn't too sure of himself in this regard... But it may be his overall mood affecting how he feels about everything. ]

hmmmmmm
now i want to see that side of him too
you're lucky, in a way

do you feel distracted now?
not that i mind talking to you for this long, though
we could talk about something more lighthearted than this

[ from one dark topic to another, he muses. akira's not that edgy, is he? ]

you're also lucky in a way.

no, i can't say i am.

[ The last words he heard from his friend is that it's the end of him and there's nothing to be done. Of course it's hard to really... Stop thinking about it. ]

got something in mind?

[ goro sure is lucky to have these boys in his particular lifetime, huh

anyways, give him a moment because outside of PT shit and goro and some navelgazing in between, they don't have much to talk about... except - ]

that bad, huh
all right
tell me about the games you've been into lately
i doubt that you actually are in a guild named the Phantom Thieves anyway

[ ...LOOK HE'S TRYING ]

[ The reality is ever since the Retrospec stuff, he hasn't been able to actually play most of his mobile games... Only on and off does he play games with his friends, but nothing at all worth mentioning. ]

i was part of a guild, but not named that. i've retired from that MMO, though.

this mobile game i play had free rolls roulette for a whole week which was generous. i got a lot of SSRs from it, though i haven't gotten a chance to play again. if i have to be honest, i mostly read the story rather than grind.

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