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Then...how do I determine if these are my feelings or they're influenced by the other me?

[It was a mix of emotions for him but one of the big things is that Mao is not an adult still...he's a kid.]

It could have been both too.

[He adds on as a hand combs though his hair before looking to Sena at his comment. Ritsu had confronted Makoto but didn't want to tell Sena that...not right now anyway. Plus he wasn't sure if it was about Makoto, best to know for sure.]

You have? How are you handling it?

[ oh you know, just fine. as in he completely projected his feelings for makoto to his own modeling junior in this real world and until now they still haven't completely made up

so basically it's like what happened in their world but with bigger consequences this time. amazing, right?

sigh. ] It's hard to tell, Kuma-kun. As far as I know, I don't feel like that towards him in this world, and I don't want to be.

[ it's dangerous, and it could mean a Bad End for everyone else involved. best not go through that. ]

Have you talked to him about this? Did he remember anything about you?

[That's rough Secchan...]

So you've been avoiding him then? If you don't want to feel that way, it does make sense to do that. It just seems like so much happened with a lot of us in the other world. Sometimes it feels like both are starting to mix and combine together here.

[Like he was almost becoming that other version of himself, maybe that's why it made him a little more on edge about it.]

...I kind of snapped at him. We were painting a lighthouse and he said I was late because of sleeping in. So...I just kind of got more annoyed and snapped.

[It wasn't pretty for anyone involved.]

He remembers things like nicknames and us always together...

Actually, I haven't. We keep running into each other for some reason, so it's kind of unavoidable. And I did want to check up on him, but I made Nazunyan do that for me in case I... relapse.

[ into a stalker. but he looks up at ritsu's own account, raising an eyebrow. his first instinct is to immediately scold ritsu for freaking out on mao like that, but that'd make him a huge hypocrite, right? ]

First of all, if you ever do that to Mao again, I'm going to kill you. [ probably. look, they had a longass heart to heart a couple months back. ] Second, an outburst like that is understandable since I've been through that myself, but if Mao did remember shit about you guys being together, you shouldn't have nothing to worry about.

[ ... ]

Mao's a good kid. Pretty sure he has too much on his plate right now as it is. We shouldn't add more to that.

Doesn't help that we all have some common history with the school and all.

[Relapse? That did sound scary he really hopes that Sena will be okay. When it comes to his freak out, he didn't need the scolding he already felt like crap. At this point he should be better at handling his emotions, yet here they are.]

...Sorry. [Ritsu rarely snaps at Mao he really is one of his few friends here.]

I just don't think it was in the way that I feel like I'm feeling?

[When Sena says the last part, he kind of expected it but at the same time...it did kind of hurt. Though he knows it's true.]

So I should probably just keep whatever I'm feeling to myself then.

[ since when is knights able to handle their erratic emotions, let's be real here. but at ritsu's words he's just going to reach over to tug at his cheek hard. ]

Don't be so fucking pedantic. We're not forcing you to divulge every little thing from your memories, especially when they're personal as hell, but in this case it's better if you tell him outright about how you used to feel about him. Mao's very understanding anyway, so I'm sure he'll accept you for who you are no matter what universe we all land in.

That's what I'm doing right now anyway.

[ kind of. but sena's pretty sure ritsu's not as bad with his obsession with mao as he used to be in their memories. ]

[True enough, emotions and Knights are a hard combination. Ritsu was about to say something more until he felt the hand on his face. For a split second he thought it would be a pat then he feels his skin being yanked on. With a quick snap of his head back, he brings a hand to his cheek to rub.]

Secchan that hurt.

[Silent he does take in the information.]

So just keep it related to the other world's feelings...that does make sense.

[Rubbing his cheek a few more moments he brings his hand down.]

So...do you think you will ever be okay to talk to the other person?

Of course it will be. It all depends on how you're going to act on it. And since you already said that it's Mao, it gives me even more excuses to keep an eye on the both of you in case something else goes wrong. Ugh.

[ sena thinks that ritsu doesn't know his own object of affection, so he should be safe. for now. ]

Anyways, is that all?

...Are you worried about just Maakun or me too?

[Ritsu was curious, though he's sure Secchan will say it's worry for Mao. He wasn't the best at getting things out of Secchan when it mean expressing feelings for him.]

Yeah, I guess...Just that and not napping now because I was mad.

Apparently I need to take care the both of you because you aren't even doing shit right without being spoonfed.

[ SO HARSH. but it's the reality. ]

Don't even think about napping here; I'll kick you out if you do.

Edited 2018-03-29 07:33 (UTC)

Secchan...you are pretty blunt, you know?

[He could function...but not really. At the comment he does pout some before drinking more water.]

I won't I said I'm not napping anymore.

Good.

[ ... ]

Thanks, though. For trusting me enough for this. I knew you'd make the right choice.

[ HE'S TRYING TO SOUND FULL OF HIMSELF BUT. you know. he does appreciate it ]

Well...

[Looking at his cup of water he then looks at Sena with a small smile. A new memory comes to him but it was something nice and he's glad he spoke to Sena too.]

Mn...well, seems you've been pretty reliable to me even in the other place.

[ other place... that means ritsu doesn't remember the unsavory parts either. sena wants to believe that he was just a reliable too, but - ]

Mm. Good to know.

[ a nod, and that's that that, he supposes. ]

[Ritsu remembered Sena stepping on him but this was a good memory of the other and even being stepped on wasn't bad?]

You seemed to accept me and that is enough, I'm glad I can talk to you here though.

[Standing up he sets the cup down and pats the others shoulder.]

Thank you, Secchan.

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